I sohuld tell you i sohuld tell you

Ever wish you coudl say waht you need to
see ei find my self hiding
hididng all emtion all fealling
I hide anytihng that mkes me human
I dont wnat ot ltkato people so idont
Im sure if wiant edt o tlak
THere are plentey around to talk ot
But i dont wna t to
I wnat to stay whare i am contant
In a world whare i tell my self that it iwll be ok
And i make my self feal better
In a place i nthkim safe
But realy i make tihngs wrse
See imade a mworld for my self
Whare i ahve control
THere are things i cnat aviod thoguh
Like the fact that i feal physical pain
Im jsut cures as how i was walking wrong for so lpong and no dr ever noticed
Now i ahve to cortrrect it
MAn im use to that
Fixiing my mistaxes
I make thos alot
I jsut wish people would stop lblaming them self
If iwant to talk i will
Boelve me im harde head unuf that you cant stop me
But i dont wnat to so wont

I knew it would happen
I wished that for once i oculd domsoenitf wrifht
and it didint happen
i saw my serlf driving on sunday
but no not any more
i failed thats all ther is to it
I made a stupid stupid mistake and i cant bolev ei did that
I was stupid
and itotice
Im an ideat
Adn i cant boelve that i did sucha thing
I got cokey
I sohuld hav eknow
Now ido ill fial next wekke two i know that much
Im not trong unuf
I msmart unuf to knwo that
No one souhld say idnfnret
cosue illl fight thme to the death
not sure why im evne tryign out
but i am
i lvoe soccer
but know that th last time i tepped on a field and last itme ill ever step on a field was psa
Tired
Tired of me
Tired of failing
Tired fo life
wont kaw the play
LEt add that to the lsit
Wish i coudl do better
But cant
Live a pathtic life
Am pathetic

i sit alone
on aw et deack
and its 3 am
and iv;e done it agne
what ienver wanted to do

cose its 3 am
and i messesd up agne
did tthe wrong thing once more
and i dont know waht to do
cosue im such a mess
and its 3 am

i made you insicre
i made you feal unsafe
adn i never inted to
but its 3 am
and i find my self in this place agne

cose its 3 am
and i messesd up agne
did tthe wrong thing once more
and i dont know waht to do
cosue im such a mess
and its 3 am

im jsut a screw iup
someone who will never do wright
and i cnat be who is needed
and i cant od what tneeds to be done

cose its 3 am
and i messesd up agne
did tthe wrong thing once more
and i dont know waht to do
cosue im such a mess
and its 3 am

i found my self wish
Tongiht wishing
No not that the nail polishw as gone
And no not that i woudt ahve to whare the dress tommarow
I was wish to be with you
TO hold you
To make you feal safe
So that you could know someone one cares
So you knew that some one loved you
So you would jsut feall somne next tot you \
So oyu would know you're not alone
SO mabby you could feal a little help
So you could cry
So you didnt ahve to hold back
So you woudnt have to be strong
So you could be you
And not be ashamed
So mabbey jsuy mabby you could be ok
But hay
Im jsut dreaming
Hay im jsut wishing
Hay im sut me

the anger boiles in my hands
The heat rases to my face
IT turns strawbarey read
I can feall the anger sepping in
But then like a sleghammer i drop the waight
I smuther the anger
I smuther the pain
I give it not another chance t o breath
I stuf it in a weat sogey emptey box
And stack ot in the dark dingery
Oh so ful basment of a hind part of me
Agenst a walll
With so meany boxes
All Lappeld
In slopey wright
Date offense
Anger leavel
THere they stay slowly bieng smother
Mokre and more ever day
Till one day
THe boxes have had unuf
A bomb goes of
The top is blown
And the anger erupts
The rom comes yto a crumbingling pille
And caos sinks in
THe strawbary read retunrns to my face
My fits clench
I feall the explose
ADn i explode
Im oof im gone
Ever offense that i;ve commited
ever tiem i;ve been yelled at
Ever angrey word said agenst me
TIs all out
THen the dust setels
THe air clears
THe boxs the rom in runes
Slowley
I reabuld the romo
Brick by brick
To keep out of sight of any onewho might see
I hid it away
Hopeful to never see another day
Hopeful for eo one to ever see

Ever

ever looked at the world?
ever jsut stoped and taken a view?
Ever looked bast the mask of people?
Ever stopedboelving ther im ok lies?
Ever sene morein there eyes?
Ever walked past siome one and seen the pain?
Ever felt ther hurt?
Ever spent a late night careing for a friend?
Ever knwo what its liekto fell hepless doignthe only tihng you cna do ?
Ever feal like you have ntohing mroe to offer?
Ever wish you could give anything everthing?
but cnat fined anything mroe?
Ever Find ur slef wishing to trade placeswith af rined to take ther pain?
Ever wonder if you;re doignt he write thing?
Ever wish you had more answers?
Ever find you;re self so wrapped up with a friend you cna almost fella ther pain?
Ever find ou;re self looking into osmeone eyees knwonig that ther answer si un true?
Ever wanted to show soemone thetruth?
Ever wish you knew how?
Ever find you;re self doing soemtihng you never expected?
Ever find you;re self holding soemone jst so you knwo there safe?
Ever wished you could hold on to soemone to protect thme fomrt he world?
Ever held soemone jsut so they knew someone was there?
EVer?

Did you know today
I sat on the deck
Sander in my hand
With my mind racing
Did you know today
I wanted to call of hanging with my friend
Did you know today
I almost burts out in tears
Did you know to day
THat suicid hit my mind once agen
Did you know today
THat i felt like a falure
Did you know today
That i really jsut want to be alone
Did you know today
I would love tocurl up in my bed
And enver coem out
Did you know today
i didnt want to get on the ocmputer
Csoeu i didint want nay one caring
Did you know today
I felt un loved
Did you know today
THat my stomic turn and mad me feal sick
Did you know today
THat i fell hopless
Did you know today
THat i know i;ve pulled away
Dd=i you know today
THat i dont feal confert
did ou know today
THat ever seens maine i;ve puleled away
ddi you know today
I let down ever one
Did you know today
I relised it didnt hurt
When you said you were leaveing
did you knwo today
I realsided ever one leves
Did you knwo today
I cant think of any one whos staid
Did ou know todat
I wish i could disaper
No i gues you did not
How would you
I didnt tell you
I guess
How could you